Days 24-26

Okay, this 30 day blogging challenge has taken far to long. I am going to knock out a couple of days in one blog. This could be kind of a long one. So please bear with me. :)

Day 24~ A photo of something that means a lot to you. This one is kind of different. The things that mean a lot to me are very random things. Very normal, but with lots of sentimental value.The first thing is my set of Pride and Prejudice videos. I got my set from my sister after I first watched it with her. I told her that was what I wanted for Christmas. Well she looked and looked and couldn't find it. So she wrapped up her set and gave it to me. This touched me a lot because I knew how much she loved it. For her to give it to me was incredible

The next thing is a book. Who cares about a book?? Well, I do. This particular book belonged to my nephew, James. James passed away while I was on my mission. I had a hard time coming to grips with this because I wasn't around for any of it. Well last week, I opened up this book to start reading it and I found an inscription to James from the author. Made my heart smile.

This one is less physical, but good none the less. This one is my memories of going to Disneyland. My favorite place ever. I went with my mom and it was a blast. I hadn't been in 20 years and it is something I will always remember.

This one is something I got from one of my companions on my mission. She knew that I liked VeggieTales and so she bought this for me. I love it. It is very special to me.

Day 25~ What's in your purse??
My purse contains the normal mess of random things. I have my wallet of course. I also have pens, lots and lots of Planet Fitness pens. What can I say??? I have a habit of taking them home from work. :) I also have lots of random things of chapstick. I can never find one when I need one, so I have lots. I also have paper clips, a purse hangy thing, scratch paper and gum. Gotta have the gum. :)

Day 26~ A photo of somewhere you have been.

West Virginia. Wild, Wonderful, Beautiful West Virginia. I went here on my mission and I am convinced that it is one of the best kept secrets in the country. It was amazing to see all of the beauties this small hidden state possessed. :)

Day 23~ Fifteen fun facts about you

Okay, for my own personal reasons I have decided to skip over day 22 (a letter to someone who has hurt you recently) and move right into day 23. Someday I might go back and do day 22, but I doubt it. Any hurt I have had I have dealt with in my way and I have moved on. :) Besides, why dwell in the hurt?

Anyway, here is my day 23. :)

Day twenty-one~ A photo of something that makes you happy.

Other than my family, the thing that makes me the happiest is the gospel of Jesus Christ. Being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints has influenced my life in the most profound ways imaginable. The knowledge that it has given to me has guided and changed my life. I can't explain how much it has impacted me. My testimony is the most precious thing I own. I have had my own private struggles some harder than I would have liked, but from each trouble and trial I have had, I have grown to know my Savior. I know of His love for me. I know that He came to this earth as a baby born in the most humble of circumstances and grew into a man who performed miracles and gave the world the gift that only He could give. He gave His life to save everyone, past, present, and future. He selflessly sacrificed for me because I am not perfect and I need his help.
The gospel has also given me a testimony of living prophets who lead and guide us through life. I know that Joseph Smith saw Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and I know that he was called to restore the gospel to the earth. He has been followed by a living prophet ever since. I know that the prophet today is Thomas S. Monson. He is called of God to lead the church today.


The other thing that the gospel has given me is a testimony of the Book of Mormon and the Bible. These are two amazing books that work hand in hand to testify of Christ. The Bible tells of Chirst's dealings with the people in the old world and the Book of Mormon tells of Christ's dealings with His children in the new world. These books are amazing in their evidences of Christ. I love the Book of Mormon. Every word testifies of Christ. These are the things in my life that make me the most happy. :)

Day twenty~ The meaning behind your blog name.

The meaning behind my blog name is more of a personal reflection. Organized Chaos seems to how my brain works and how my life seems to go. I tend to be a very random person. There are about a billion different things stumbling through my brain at any given time and I am known to jump from thing to thing quite often. Sometimes I forget that others don't know what is going on in my head and I talk to them like they do. More often than not they look at me like I am crazy. But in my mind it is totally clear. :)

My life has often followed the same course. There have been many times when I have wandered through this life lost in a state of total chaos. Not knowing where I am going or what I want out of my life. Then there were times of total clarity. Mostly though my life has been a bit chaotic. Once I learned to harness the chaos I began to thrive. There are still things in my life that I can't control and things that throw me for a loop, but I feel like there is an order to all of it.

If I put my trust in my Heavenly Father then the chaos seems to slow down and I am able to process it. I can't do it on my own. I have tried. I need the support of a Heavenly Father who knows me and understand the chaos inside me better than I ever could. He has taken me through the refiners fire and has made me into a better person. I know that there are still many fires to go through in the purification process, but I know that as I do the things that the Lord requires of me, the chaos will become still and I will be the person that my Father needs me to be. He has never failed me and he has never left me alone. So I am grateful for the chaos in my life and in my head. It is through that chaos that I have found true friends in my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ. And through the chaos I have found the quiet whisperings of the Spirit bringing peace and organization to an otherwise tangled web.

Day ninteen~ Another picture of yourself.

This picture was taken a week or so ago when my friends and I had a girls night. This was one of those nights when we could all just chill and relax. We all needed this night. It is so good to have friends that you can be yourself with. You know the ones that don't care when you eat whatever you want and look totally stupid and do dumb things with. :) Those are the best kind of friends. I and really grateful and blessed. :)

Day eighteen~ Something you crave a lot.

Okay, this is really weird, but something I crave a lot is garlic. I love garlic. I don't know what it is that makes me love it so much, but I do. Another thing I crave a lot is ice cream. Ice cream makes everything so much better. Yeah, it's a short post, I know, but oh well there you have it.

A brief interlude....

Okay, I know that this isn't part of my 30 day blogging challenge (which by the way has turned into more of a 3 month challenge) but I had something I need to get out so that it doesn't just fester. Okay, this is going to sound kind of stupid, but I have to give a bit of backstory. There is a guy that I like and for a while now I have been refering to him as my pretend boyfriend. He has no clue and it's gonna stay that way. Well, today my friend who is absolutely beautiful, said she wanted to ask him out, just to see what he would say. Am I bothered by that??? Yeah, but not so much for the reasons you think I would be. What really bothers me is that I know I have no shot with him. First of all, I am no where brave enough to even approach him about it. Secondly, I know I am not pretty enough for him. Or skinny enough for that matter. I told my friend she should do it. She said she didn't want to hurt my feelings and I kind of lied and said it wouldn't hurt them. After all, I told her, you have more of a shot than I could ever dream of. So am I hurt??? Yeah. Am I mad??? Yeah. I am mad that I am not the kind of girl he would be interested in. I'm not skinny and pretty. I am mad that I am not willing to stand up for myself and go after the things I want. I am mad that I am a chicken...

So dear friend, and you know who you are, should you happen upon this and read it, it in no way changes my previous statements to you. That dye has been cast and I can't take it back. I may seem mad, but please know that I am not mad at you. I am mad at me...