Second Best....

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING POST IS EXTREMELY PESSIMISTIC. IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO READ SOMETHING LIKE THIS QUIT NOW. If, however, I have peeked your interest keep reading.

Ever have those moments when you feel like you are second best to everyone and everything... That is how I have been feeling lately. Now I am not blogging this to get sympathy or pity from any one. I am blogging so that I can get it off my chest and hopefully feel better about it. I have been having issues with certain people who have it all. They are better looking, smarter, quicker to learn things, make friends quicker, and are over all more than I am. These are the type of people that everyone is drawn to. The ones that can have friends and people love them all without any effort on their part. It is a natural talent that they have and it makes me so darn mad sometimes. How is it that one person can have it all? Have the friendships that everyone wants? The personality that makes them irresitable? The ones that can seemlessly integrate themselves into any situation? Are the types of people can just bat their eyes and have whatever they want? It makes me doubt just about everything about myself. It makes me doubt whether my friends really like me or if they just feel sorry for me. It makes me doubt whether I am of any worth in job situations. It makes me feel like I am invisible. After all, if they are better than me at everything, why wouldn't everyone like them more and have more use for them. These are the kind of people that it would be far easier if I could hate them, but I can't because I want to friends with them too. I am drawn to them like everyone else and if I could hate them I wouldn't have these issues. But I can't hate them... Looks like there is one more thing I am second best at...