My life is not at all the way I had intended it to be. I did not intend to be almost 30 and single. I did not intend to be almost 30 and have no real idea about what I want to do with my life. I did not intend to have a niece get married before I do. I did not intend to be living the life that I am living, but I am okay.
I am okay with where I am at. There are days when I feel scared and alone and I feel like I will never get further than where I am right now. On those days, when I feel like the biggest loser, if I am listening and paying attention, it is then that Heavenly Father offers me sweet relief. He offers me a word, a thought, an action, or a feeling. Most of these come through prayer and scripture study, but often they come through another person. The people that He has brought into my life have shaped me and made me into the person that I am.
I have been blessed with an incredible family that I love and who loves me. My family is always there for me. Whether it is my mother who always sees the best in me, even when I forget or my sister who pushes me and doesn't let me quit. It's my brother in law who is smart and reminds me that it okay to stand out and be who I want to be. It is my niece who keeps me involved in her wedding plans even when I am wanting to to feel sorry for myself and cut myself off from everyone and it is my nephew who hugs me and loves me no matter how old he gets.
I have been blessed with friends. Not a lot, but the ones I have are always there for me. They are good, kind, honest, and caring people. And even though my friends come and go, they have left pieces of themselves within me. Things I will always have with me. I have been blessed with a great church family and I am grateful for all the love and help that they have given me.
And so, even though there will always be hard times and I will always need fine tuning I am who I am.
I AM ME AND I AM OKAY!!!!!
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